How to Murder Your Life - Cat Marnell

How to Murder Your Life

By Cat Marnell

  • Release Date: 2017-01-31
  • Genre: Biographies & Memoirs
Score: 4.5
From 346 Ratings


From the New York Times bestselling author and former beauty editor Cat Marnell, a “vivid, maddening, heartbreaking, very funny, chaotic” (The New York Times) memoir of prescription drug addiction and self-sabotage, set in the glamorous world of fashion magazines and downtown nightclubs.

At twenty-six, Cat Marnell was an associate beauty editor at Lucky, one of the top fashion magazines in America—and that’s all most people knew about her. But she hid a secret life. She was a prescription drug addict. She was also a “doctor shopper” who manipulated Upper East Side psychiatrists for pills, pills, and more pills; a lonely bulimic who spent hundreds of dollars a week on binge foods; a promiscuous party girl who danced barefoot on banquets; a weepy and hallucination-prone insomniac who would take anything—anything—to sleep.

This is a tale of self-loathing, self-sabotage, and yes, self-tanner. It begins at a posh New England prep school—and with a prescription for the Attention Deficit Disorder medication Ritalin. It continues to New York, where we follow Marnell’s amphetamine-fueled rise from intern to editor through the beauty departments of NYLON, Teen Vogue, Glamour, and Lucky. We see her fight between ambition and addiction and how, inevitably, her disease threatens everything she worked so hard to achieve. From the Condé Nast building to seedy nightclubs, from doctors’ offices and mental hospitals, Marnell “treads a knife edge between glamorizing her own despair and rendering it with savage honesty.…with the skill of a pulp novelist” (The New York Times Book Review) what it is like to live in the wild, chaotic, often sinister world of a young female addict who can’t say no.

Combining “all the intoxicating intrigue of a thriller and yet all the sobering pathos of a gifted writer’s true-life journey to recover her former health, happiness, ambitions, and identity” (Harper’s Bazaar), How to Murder Your Life is mesmerizing, revelatory, and necessary.


  • WOW

    By zimmermc
    speechless just wow
  • Yes

    By rachieqt02
    I really couldn't put this book down. I was totally sucked in. I'm not a drug addict, but somehow Cat had me relating to her every move. If she wrote another book I'd buy it in a heart beat. (I hope you are doing well Cat. Totally followed you on Instagram and you are beautiful!)
  • Great read

    By WAT Mama
    I enjoyed reading every minute of this book. I am sadden you have had so much heartbreak in your life, but like they say "What doesn't kill us, just makes us a stronger". This is a book I think every young adult and parent should read. Yeah she may not be what people considered "clean" at the end of the book, but her story is real and raw! This is life! Wish her nothing but the best!
  • How To Murder Your Life

    By Hef J
    I admired Cat for her ambition, but I kept reading the same story over and over. I was excited to hear how Cat overcame her severe addiction, but it never came. She says that she is doing better, but she is still addicted and not clean. It was a disappointing ending. She is, sadly, still heading for an early death. I don't feel like she should be praised for this book. (She was legally forced to write it.) I will be happy to read a future book from her when she truly gets her act together and gives up drugs and alcohol 100%. And, Marco...
  • Couldn't stop reading!

    By BeardAA
    Thank you for writing this Cat Marnell. Five stars! I couldn't put it down!
  • Addicting book about Addiction

    By LP9090
    I walked into barns and noble and this was the first book that caught my eye. So happy I found it! Once I picked up the book and read that her troubbles started at boarding school I was sucked in. Its simply ad addicting book abut addiction, her voice is humorous and she is now a role model of mine for the way she approached the topic and worked though it. She knew she had a problem but choose to embrace it and share it with the worled, she also knew she was talented with her problems and all. KUDOS CAT I LUV U
  • So good

    By wsaleeby
    Bought this book yesterday afternoon.. finished it at midnight. Seriously want to read it again already! bravo Cat!
  • How to murder your life

    By Aoreardon
    Terrible I would give it zero stars if I could
  • How to murder your life

    By Nina@310
    Exhausted from reading this book. I've lost two days to it. Should be required reading for everyone from 12 years old and up.
  • Couldn't Put It Down

    By BakerReader
    Cat, girlfriend, thanks for writing this book! You're a trooper and I admire your courage. Anyone who has an addiction to drugs/alcohol will totally relate.